2/27/2009

My 2nd Beta is...


401 !!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you GOD!! That's a little more than double the 174 from Wednesday!!! Goodness!...Is this really happening???? I keep telling Jerry that it feels so surreal. He has to keep reminding me that it's definitely SO REAL. All these years of saying 'congratulations' to others, it feels so strange to be on the receiving end. I'm still having a little bit of trouble actually letting myself feel totally happy. I guess I'm going to have to allow myself to feel totally happy. That may take some time, especially after all these years of heartache.

For years and years, I've always bought the EPT brand of hpts. And every single time, that evil pee stick laughs and says "As if!" So today after the blood draw, we went to the Target near CCRM and bought an EPT. But I didn't use it until after I got the 2nd beta phone call. I wanted to make sure that this time, I'm going to beat it. And I did! I finally saw the POSITIVE sign!!



I know we've still got more hurdles to jump, but this is the furthest we've ever gotten. I don't know if I can ever feel like I've "crossed over" to the other side, as our struggle with infertility has been so long and painful. This is a whole new feeling, a feeling I've never felt before. So it's going to take some time to get used to it.

When Jerry and I were at the clinic this morning, I whispered to him, "This is the place that miracles happen." And he whispers back, "That's right." And then we said a little prayer for everyone going to CCRM and other clinics, that they get their miracles too. I want to say a special "Hi" to a lady I met in person at CCRM this morning. "G" came up to me and congratulated me on my bfp and let me know that she reads my blog. I was so touched, and I wish her much success! (And everyone that is struggling this horrible disease.)

We'll be leaving early tomorrow morning to head back home, so I will catch up with everyone's blogs as soon as I can. I will close this post by THANKING each and everyone of you for your comments and congratulations!! Ya'll don't know how much it means to me reading each congratulations comment.

18 comments:

DAVs said...

Oh Linda, I'm so happy you're finally on the receiving end of those congratulations! You have walked such a long road--heck, you've sometimes even been crawling--and you're tenacity is impressive. I know that CCRM brought you your miracle, and I'm so happy they did. And thanks for the continued prayers for the rest of us, we could sure use them!

kayjay said...

Congrats Linda!!! I am so happy for you and I hope that you gradually get used to this euphoric feeling. You honestly give me so much hope - your determination, your resourcefulness and your will to continue on through the tough times. Congrats again and keep us updated!

Sheri said...

Wow! longtime reader and first time commenter.... I can not tell you how blown away I am by this fabulous news!!!

Many, many congratulations & H&H9 months vibes to you. What an amazing journey to motherhood you've had.

Hugs

Jill said...

Congrats on a great 2nd beta Linda!! I'm so happy for you!! Have you gotten your u/s scheduled yet? Wishing you a great 9 months ahead!! Another CCRM miracle!

Nikki said...

Wow Linda - that's a great beta! Enjoy receiving all these congratulations! You've slogged enough for each and every wish, and you and Jerry deserve every moment of the happiness and joy that you're experiencing right now.

Good luck!!

Jill M. said...

I am so happy to see you on the receiving end, I just smile when I read your post. Thank you praying for those of us that are still struggling, you give us all hope! Enjoy!

abgs said...

Congrats!!! awesome beta!

H&H 8 months to you!

brunettechicagogal said...

Those prayers are coming right back at you and Jerry. I truly feel the support of all my online "friends" -- it's what gets me through this crazy process.

Kathleen

onemuse said...

I just love to read about that Beta number going up, up, up! :o)

Anonymous said...

Congratulations, I just recently started reading your blog and I am so happy for you!!
I just had my transfer today (4 embryos') this is after 4 failed IUI's and 2 miscarriages, so I am praying.
God bless you!!!
Michele jdsw02@yahoo.com

mlg- believe N miracles said...

I am so happy for you! Congratulations! Thank you for the prayers, you have always been so supportive to all of us, you so deserve the best!

Love Me, Don't Eat Me. said...

Hey girl! I actually read your facebook status a few days ago. I was so blown away! I cannot tell you how happy I am for you. I really felt like this was going to be your time. Congratulations, honey! You're a wonderful woman.

Binx

Telle said...

Congrats again!!!! Travel safely!!!!

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

That is awesome! Congrats! So happy you got your positive finally after your long struggle.

Mommy, Esq. said...

With numbers that high - I'm thinking twins or triplets! Get ready for a fun and challenging ride! Congratulations!

Polly Gamwich said...

Ok, I swore I already congratulated you ... but since it's obviously not on this list of comments .... CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

What an amazing story you have. How are you feeling? How was your ultrasound? Are you carrying 2 or 3?? :-D

I hope you're doing well and weathering the early stages nicely.

Big hugs,
Polly

Lisa said...

Hey Linda, Congrats on that amazing second beta number!! That's SUPER high! Do you have your ultra sound scheduled yet to find out how many???

I'm doing good, thanks for asking. I was out of commission for the first 16 weeks with all day morning sickness that made it hard to enjoy anything, so that was such a huge disappointment after waiting so long to finally get pregnant. I thought it would never end, but luckily it's has. So I hope you don't experience that and escape the sickeness! I'll cross my fingers for you.

I'm 19 weeks today! I can't beleive it. One more week and I'll be half way. It's still surreal to me, but I think I'm finally starting to let myself beleive it. It took a while though, so don't be surprised if your emotions aren't everything you thought they'd be for the first little while. It's hard, after everything we've gone through, and you'll still have to work through those feelings. And of course, the nerve racking first trimester and pray nothing bad happens.

We ended up losing one of our twins, which was really sad, but we still have one going strong and the doctor says all is well. I'm just so releived that we didn't lose both and I pray every day that my story ends with me actually holding my baby in my arms. One more week until we find out the sex which is very exciting, and then after that, I think we are finally brave enough to start shopping :)

I am hoping that everything goes well with your upcoming ultrasound! And that you have a happy healthy nine months ahead of you!!! I will say lots of prayers.

AND CONGRATS AGAIN !!!!!!

Sheri said...

Please update on how you are feeling! Continued well wishes to you!